32 Week Update

I'm a bit overdue for a pregnancy update.
The poor middle child is already getting lost in shadow of his big sister.

"Baby Ty"
Tyler William is currently the size of a honeydew. He is approximately 4.5 pounds and 19 inches tall. His nursery is 90% ready for him minus a few odds and ends that I still need to get (changing pad, diapers, wipes, pacifiers, and other miscellaneous things.)

My Body
I'm at 32 weeks and am feeling every part of it. At the end of the day my body is DONE. Every part of my body seems to be threatening me in some way. The Braxton Hicks contractions yell, "Chill out woman. Too much lifting, bending, and walking." My lower back chimes in, "No more! Please no more! Sit down! No, not the toddler again! Laundry day? Shoot me now!" Not to mention the pitiful cries from my bladder, "No room! Don't sneeze! Whoops."

Anxieties
I've been talking to my doctor a lot about avoiding a 2nd C-section. I'm a good candidate for a vbac even though I had a c-section with Adelyn but there are a lot of unpredictables beyond my control. I'll say this, I REALLY don't want to have another c-section. Healing up from that while taking care of a toddler will be next to impossible without daily help for a few weeks. Gosh that would be hard. After having a c-section, being induced is out of the question so I simply have to hope and pray that my body goes into labor naturally and on time. At around 39 weeks, I'll be trying out about every home remedy and suggested method of putting myself into labor. It should be humorous.

One thing that I am growing increasingly worried about are the post-baby weeks. Adelyn and I have gotten into a great little routine that seems to work for us. This always involves getting out of the house in the morning. The days that we don't go do something in the morning result in a cranky child, a frazzled mama, and a rough day. Add some sleep deprivation and some post-partum hormones to that and it is a recipe for disaster. I'm worried.

Symptoms
I had forgotten how much the 3rd trimester starts to resemble the 1st (minus the sickness thank goodness). The cravings, fatigue, hormones, and other strange symtoms make one final visit on their way out. I have been LOVING milk lately. I want it with every meal. It is so freaking good. I also crave popcycles frequently. A simple, fruity popcycle makes my day. I'm also tired. Probably because I'm not sleeping as well thanks to the extra 20 pounds strapped to my midsection. The body pillow has helped but nothing can keep the acid reflux from making a midnight visit. Overall though, this pregnancy has been easier than my first- just more tiring. Especially now that I'm in the home stretch.

Anticipation
While most of this post may come off with a negative tone, I do want to clarify that I am growing increasingly excited to have Tyler join our family. I look forward to having a swaddled little baby in my arms. I look forward to seeing Adelyn meet her new brother. I love my brother and sister dearly and am so excited for Adelyn and Tyler to have that with each other. I anticipate many tears when seeing them meet one another. I look forward to the sweet baby noises, cuddles, and sweetness that comes with a newborn. I also look forward to ENJOYING this child and not stressing about naps, eating, and a schedule like I did with Adelyn. I want to be more go with the flow and not get so stressed about bad habits or how much sleep he should be getting. I just look forward to doing this all again now that I have some experience. Not that I know what I'm doing but I won't be freaking out at the fact that I DON'T know what I'm doing.

Seven weeks and 5 days left. But who's counting, right?