Week 32 Update

"Polly, when is your baby due again?"
"June 19"
"Wow, that's coming up!"

This is probably the most common conversation I have as of late.
I don't mind people asking me when Adelyn is due. I never remember my friend's due dates either so I don't expect others to remember mine. However, as more and more people comment, "It's coming up..." or "It'll be here before you know it..." I want to believe what they are saying. We are about 8 weeks out from her due date. Eight weeks seems like such a short amount of time but also an eternity.

Yesterday was a hard day for some reason. I was just really uncomfortable, super tired, feeling kinda sick, crampy, and cranky. Days like that make 8 weeks seem really really long and daunting.

It honestly feels similar to the first trimester. I feel way more tired than usual, kinda sick during the day, and just drained from anything. Also like my 1st trimester, I'm fighting to stay busy. While I do need a lot of rest, I find that doing nothing makes me focus so much on me and my discomfort. I'd rather be uncomfortable out and about with people than in isolation in my own home.

The hard thing is, I know it only gets worse before it gets better. I mean I still have 2 months. A lot of growth and weight gain is still in store. Probably some more unfortunate pregnancy symptoms as well. Ugh. Can you tell I'm a bit distraught right now?

On with the updates:

Maternity Clothes: Glad it's getting warmer. That means more comfy cotton dresses and leggings.

Stretch Marks: Nope. Still none. Only 8 more weeks skin... hang in there!!

Sleep: Haven't slept through a night in months. Probably won't for a long time so I'm just embracing it.  My body pillow helps but I usually discard it halfway through the night.

Movement: Yep. Her feet are still all up in my ribs. I guess that's good though because it means she's head down.


Doctors Visits: Had one last Monday. Uneventful which is good I guess.
We did, however, take our birthing class a few weekends ago. It was really good but also very eye opening to the unfortunate future of my body. There were parts of the class where I kept getting hot flashes-particularly when talking about the post-labor aftermath. I know it will be worth it but it's hard to focus on that rather than the hell my body is going to go through in two months. The class was well worth the time. The videos confirmed that I will, Lord willing, indeed have an epidural. Don't judge me you granola moms out there. :)

Mood Swings: Goodness, yes. I'm constantly one sentence away from tears. It's not like I'm sad all the time. Just easily provoked.

Cravings: Blue Gatorade. It just sounds good all of the time. Gosh I want some right now just looking at it.

Labor Signs: This area has picked up quite a bit. My body is kinda wigging out. During the Good Friday service at church, my blood pressure dropped big time (I got super dizzy, then really hot- I've had this happen a few times pre-pregnancy so I know what it is). Even though I knew what it was and I felt normal after, we tracked down a medical person and had him take my blood pressure right there at church to make sure everything was ok. It was. Then, a few days ago I had to call the doc because I was getting some major cramps after a walk. Turns out I had irritated my uterus a bit and wasn't drinking enough water. After sitting down and drinking some water, things settled down. I'm for sure feeling my body prepare more and more. Lots of small contractions and small cramps and discomfort. It's hard to know whats normal. I can sometimes be a bit of a hypochondriac so my doctor has gotten a few calls from me. I hope they don't mind.

Belly Button: Still in there but is more of a big "O" now instead of a normal inny belly button. I like to pretend it's singing opera. Austin thinks it's funny at least. :)

Laugh of the Week: I'm just NOW at a point where I can laugh about this. Like I said, I'm easily provoked. So when we come home to find that Chauncey has found his way into our garden again and dug up even more veggies, I was a very very unhappy woman. My anger of course turned in to frustrated tears and then I had to laugh at myself because I was crying over Chauncey digging in our garden. I shunned him for the rest of the evening and managed to get over my anger by the morning.  I really don't think I've ever been so mad at him though.

What I miss: Having a busy day without feeling completely drained. My miss my energy.

What I'm looking forward to: Seeing Austin as a daddy. I see lots of dads with their little girls and can only imagine how precious it's going to be to see Austin with our little one.

What I'm nervous about: Well the childbirth class gave me a whole new set of things to be nervous about. I think its intended purpose is the opposite of that but it didn't work too well for me. I am nervous about what it's going to be like transitioning from full time worker to full time mom. For so long, part of my identity has been tied to student ministry. To step back from that will probably be harder than I anticipate. It's already kinda hard to slowly hand off my job to someone new.

Weekly wisdom: Despite popular belief, it is easy to shave your legs at the end of pregnancy. At least at this point.

Milestones: Baby showers are done. They were wonderful! We pretty much are prepped for Adelyn's first few months!